It’s been five months since you left this physical presence. We celebrated your birthday. We celebrated Ana’s birthday. We watched with adoration as Ana loaded in an Escalade with her prom date and friends to dinner. Today is Molly’s birthday. We will be celebrating with the traditional “Cousins and Cake.” As hard as it is, we continue to push forward in your memory and honor.
Mom, Ana and I are sad every day. Yet we push forward. We do so because you inspired us. You inspire us to be better every day. You taught so many to never ever give up. You inspire people daily. We receive countless calls, texts, emails, letters from friends, family and even strangers telling us how you have touched their hearts and lives.
I am certain you are watching over us. You are our protector. You are no longer in pain. You no longer feel the human condition of sadness. You, Jacob Adam Ben Butze, only carry love and happiness now.
We will likely never understand why. Why you were chosen. Why this had to happen to someone who soaked up life the way you did. Perhaps you were taken because you lived more in 20+ years than most do in 100. I’ve always loved the song “Maybe I’m Amazed.” This is the finals verse and it sums up a lot.
“Maybe I’m amazed at the way you’re with me all the time
Maybe I’m afraid of the way I leave you
Maybe I’m amazed at the way you help me sing my song
Right me when I’m wrong
Maybe I’m amazed at the way I really need you.”
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